She told me that the psychological panic a 2 year old has over having to use the “wrong” sippy cup is equal to the panic I would feel if I couldn’t pay the mortgage. The scope of the problem within the capacity of our individual worlds is proportionately the same, though a clear-headed intellectual comparison of the two would not even have them in the same room.
Just so, each phase of my life opens up before me with a wide-eyed, holy-cow-I-will-never-be-enough-for-this panic. I double down. I push forward, head down, refusing to be defeated, refusing to give up. And slowly in my mental insistence it becomes obvious and true. I am not enough. I cannot.
The survival of growing pains that each season in life has brought me inevitably happens only when my hands drop down, my shoulders relax and I lean into greater resource then what I have. Like a branch sucking up the juice from the vine, there is one who is more, even when I am not. And so then I too become, enough.
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Today I join the Five Minute Friday crew in a virtual “writing lab” of sorts. Each week a single topic is presented and we write for five minutes straight. Simply that. This is today’s entry.
Photo Credit: Rob Blair
That was so enjoyable! And a beautiful picture!
~Your neighbor on fmf.
Gorgeous words, Karena! You are very talented! So glad you found Five Minute Friday. I hope it’s the first of many!
Thank you Kate. I am happy to start priming the pump of self expression again. Thank you for letting me jump into the community.
Karena,
delightful and SO relatable! My girls are turning 8, 6, and 10 this spring/summer, but the frustrations of my toddlers are still easy to recall.
As a reforming “control” addict, I am seeing how God has used my children to wrestle my hands off His plans for my life. To remind me that He is in control when I cannot be.
🙂 Thank you for sharing.
-Tammy
(#5 on the linkup tonight)
Beautifully written, Karena, and the photograph is so fitting.
And I never knew that, about how attached a child can be to a sippy cup. (Uh, what’s a sippy cup? Don’t have kids…)
I gather this is your first visit to Five Minute Friday; I hope you’ll stay. It’s a wonderful community.
Your neighbour at #1 this week.
http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2017/04/your-dying-spouse-294-famous-last-words.html
Your pictures drew my interest in the link up. I love the first paragraph as I work with two year olds! I will use that story with parents to help them empathize with their toddlers!
Jenn
So relatable – such truth in year few paragraphs! Keep priming that pump, I love to read your writing.
SO happy to read your writing again! Perfect timing.